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Willow

by Monika

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1.
Sit and wait Patiently Alone underneath The staircase Of our new home Miscellaneously Unaware of The burns on my hands Like a furnaces' heat You've been stripped of your sovereignty And left to tend to your own seeds off the back of your own In turn, the earth will spin And, in turn, the plants will grow back in Your hands will be monuments that measure where the pain has been They were encapsulating and calculated
2.
Diarahan 03:51
I walked right behind you To resuscitate With a couple more mistakes we've made Off the heels of your silence With healing meant for change I walked right behind you
3.
And you'd think its what you wanted To just be alone You can't convince me it autonomous I know you better than anyone You like to think that you're forgotten In your heart But, it's not the same, and it was never the same As anyone may have thought So now you'll breathe in your bedroom Listening to the same Slow Rosary songs Or watching K-On! all night long Until you think you can manage When you feel discontemporary
4.
I get intimidated by you Though you aren't meant to depreciate me I locked my door behind me With no intent of displacement Sometimes you forget how miserable you are I can't help feeling bashful I'm not terribly important Though I do wish I meant something I left it all behind me There's no need to replace me I'm not a martyr to speak of at all Mistake, misplace I can't help feeling bashful Mistake, misplace Account for the pain again And you'll see a faint image of what is left Mistake an integral and vital part of me Misplace an integral and vital part of me And I will stay in wait until there is nothing left for me to miss
5.
Calisthenics 00:57
6.
Aquor 03:11
7.
Slow Start 06:26
I wasn't so honest on my script In hopes you'd understand why I went away I thought I dodged city lines From the highway on my way back out from here We just moved away Across to where we thought we had meant to be We just moved along We just left alone We felt sick knowing we were wrong We saw the moments in the mirror as they had gone Sat beneath the stairs as we faded along And it wasn't worth it at all But, they went anyway And our eyes burned, wet and warm It felt visceral
8.
Sky Tower 07:49
Christmas lights They are binding Around our necks So, cut beneath me Well, were we meant to be Where we thought we were always? Well, were we meant to be? Coated in chrysanthemum petals In the ease of our process alone It was just never my place To decide where to go I will be seen As the mistake you have established me I want to believe But I won't Incessants If may, or mighty An end, regret So please forgive me Well, were we meant to be A component that's needed? Well were we meant to be? Cushioned by sunflower blossoms In the ease of our process alone It was just never my place To go off alone It will be serene When I finally learn to let myself go I want to believe
9.
Kayfabe 03:39
A set facade display to stay Made of empty promises and mistakes Yet, I may miss you I hope you will too
10.
You can hate me for what I say Based upon the condescending tone Of what I've said It's exactly what I've meant I'll feign my solidarity To you When we peered off the side of the rooftop We knew exactly where we had went wrong You can wait for me to defend you You can wait for me to amend truths But I know that's what you want from me Because they'll leave me behind there anyway And they'll step on the promises that we made And they'll change their minds so irreverently I'll never fucking understand

about

A loose concept in motion and displacement.
Recorded during early 2019.

credits

released March 29, 2019

On this recording, Monika is:
Cass Carlisle - bass/vocals
Zack Theriot - guitars/vocals
Alex "Leo" Salinas - drums

Recorded and mixed by Blake Robicheaux
Mastered by Anya Trest
Art by Zack Theriot and Cass Carlisle

Special thanks to Brett Mulberry, Anya Trest, Zack Shoop, Jon Sturm, and Blake Robicheaux for at some point being involved and helping these songs come alive these past few years. Additional thanks to Jiji, Benny, and Junie for being very sweet cats.

Cassette tapes available at the Acrobat Unstable link located at the right hand side of the page.

Pressing info:
1st press
/25 Gold Sparkle tapes (Deep Sea Records)

2nd press
/25 Smoky Tint tapes (Deep Sea Records)

3rd press
/100 Clear w/ Pink Splatter tapes (Acrobat Unstable)

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Monika Lafayette, Louisiana

Louisiana fuzz music

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